the four right chords can make me cry

Largely inaccurate test that asks salacious questions.
only for the truly bored or those looking for a cop-out blog entry.

posted by beckyboo @ 1:27 AM 0 comments

http://www.okcupid.com/personality?type=DGLD&g=2&o=1&h=165
The Sonnet
Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLDf)


Romantic, hopeful, and composed. You are the Sonnet. Get it? Composed?

Sonnets want Love and have high ideals about it. They're conscientious people, caring & careful. You yourself have deep convictions, and you devote a lot of thought to romance and what it should be. This will frighten away most potential mates, but that's okay, because you're very choosy with your affections anyway. You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance.

Lovers who share your idealized perspective, or who are at least willing to totally throw themselves into a relationship, will be very, very happy with you. And you with them. You're already selfless and compassionate, and with the right partner, there's no doubt you can be sensual, even adventurously so.

You probably have lots of female friends, and they have a special soft spot for you. Babies do, too, at the tippy-top of their baby skulls.


ALWAYS AVOID: The 5-Night Stand, The False Messiah, The Hornivore, The Last Man on Earth

CONSIDER: The Loverboy

posted by beckyboo @ 1:21 AM 0 comments

what is it exactly that makes one feminine?

i've often had the accusation that i'm not feminine leveled at me by the guys. but why? i wear the occasional skirt, (in fact when i was in school i wore one everyday! so you can forgive me for not wanting to wear one on sundays and saturdays too right?) i have long hair (although it used to be MUCH longer).

is it because i dont wear make up? because i dont like shopping? because i dont have an irrational fear of spiders and dirt? because i dont have an unreasonable tendency to scream at the slightest opportunity? because i dont comb my hair every five minutes? because i dont take a second glance everytime i pass a reflective surface?

those things dont make you female! such a superficial checklist...

but what then makes you female? the absence of the Y chromosome? interestingly, the human body plan is more or less basically female, meaning that in the absence of male hormones, every body develops female characteristics (more or less). but does that make being female the absence of maleness? surely there are things that are uniquely female (other than birth, periods etc or any of the superficial things i mentioned).

the dissolution of gender stereotypes is a good thing. removing any stereotype is good. but what then is uniquely male or female anymore? females are more nuturing, but these days men can be too. females clean house, not anymore. females are physically weaker, again, not always.

posted by beckyboo @ 10:54 PM 0 comments

The Waves - Sad little girl

i try so hard to hold my head above the water
drowning, flailing, barely surviving
wont you throw me that life saver
before i go under
the tears swell and threaten to sweep me away
but i blink them back and smile
below the deceptive calm of the ocean
a storm rages

i wont let you see
i wont let you see
i wont let you see
me

floating on the endless wetness
will i ever see the shore
i'm tired of floundering but too tired to care
frustrated at my failures that you must never know
but the distance it creates
eats away at my soul
still

i wont let you see
i wont let you see
i wont let you see
me

the tears swell and threaten to sweep me away
but i blink them back and smile

posted by beckyboo @ 10:22 PM 0 comments

i love that song
its sheer poetry... beautiful
i believe in the sand beneath my toes
the beach gives a feeling an earthy feeling
i believe in the faith that grows
and the four right chords can make me cry
yeah, the four right chords CAN make me cry

poets are great and all... but give me a poet with a guitar in his hands!! singing opens up a whole new avenue, the tone, the melody, the rhythms, so much more room for expression!

posted by beckyboo @ 12:30 AM 0 comments

semi-charmed life - third eye blind

I'm packed and I'm holding
I'm smiling, she living, she golden
she lives for me, says she lives for me
ovation, oh what a motivation
she comes round and she goes down for me

And i make her smile, like a drug for you
do ever what you wanna do, coming over you
Keep on smiling, what we go through
one stop to the rhythm that divides you
and i speak to you like the chorus to the verse
chop another line like a coda with a curse
coming like a freak show takes the stage
we give them the games they play she say

i want something else
to get me through this
semi-charmed kinda life
baby baby
i want something else
i'm not listening when you say
goodbye

the sky was gold, it was rose,
i was taking sips of it through my nose
and i wish i could get back there, some place back there
smiling in the pictures you would take
doing crystal myth will lift you up until you break. it wont stop
I wont come down, i keep stock
with a tick tock rhythm, a bump for drop
and then i bumped up
i took the hit that i was giving and about to get
about to get she said

how do i get back there to
the place where i fell asleep inside you
how do i get myself back to
the place where
you said

i want something else
to get me through this
semi-charmed kinda life
baby baby
i want something else
i'm not listening when you say
goodbye

i believe in the sand beneath my toes
the beach gives a feeling, an earthy feeling
i believe in the faith that grows
and the four right chords can make me cry
when im with you i feel like i could die and that would be alright
alright

when the plane came in she said she was crashing
the velvet that rips in the city we tripped
on the urge to feel alive
but now im struggling to survive
those days you were wearing that velvet dress
you're the priestess i must confess
those little red panties they passed the test
slides up around the belly face down on the mattress
one
and you hold me
and we are broken
still its all that i wanna do just a little now
feel myself, ten feet off the ground
i'm scared, but im not coming down, no no
and i wont run for my life
she's got her jaws now locked down in a smile
but nothing is alright
alright

i want, something else
to get me through this
life
baby
i want, something else
not listening when you say
goodbye
goodbye
goodbye

goodbye

the sky was gold, it was rose
i was taking sips of it through my nose
and i wish i could get back there
someplace back there
in the place we used to fly

posted by beckyboo @ 11:32 PM 0 comments

He works his charms

Once again, (****) has managed to charm another girl without even trying or intending to. Its so incredibly effortless for him! and it leaves me bewildered!!! I mean, he IS a really sweet kid, kind, gentle, charmingly cheeky. I do admit that he has this certain boyish air about him that might just be found appealing. But in all the years i've known the dear boy, i never even once felt a slight hint of anything for him in that way, and for me, thats alot. But without fail, he charms pants off any other girl that comes within a 2 metre radius of him and i am not exaggerating. even a little.

haha, cool, i seem to have some kind of innate immunity.

and yet i marvel. just WHY does every single girl fall at his feet? its amazing... what makes him so special? if i could extract, define, determine it, then package it and market it to ugly unsocialables, id make a fortune. if i applied the formula to myself... ? who knows.

*p.s. names changed to protect the charmingly innocent

posted by beckyboo @ 12:35 AM 0 comments

the most patient man in the world

one of the reasons why i love my dad. He is by far the most patient man on the surface of God's green earth. i think patience stems from a great character, someone who's calm and sure that things are gonna turn out even if things get thrown off by idiot people. guess thats what i saw in him. great, enduring patience.

i will need someone very patient if that person is gonna live with me for the rest of my/his life.

Married Life

today had my second bible study session with the wonderful mei ee. Had a really good time. I just love talking to her, things seem to be working out so fabulously, i'm so thankful for that. After that, she and dan took me out to dinner at Jack's Place and brought me grocery shopping with them. Although i felt mildly strange, cos i was like their kid, but way too old, it was a really fun time. I felt so accepted, assimilated into their family almost. I was really touched by the kindness and generosity they treated me with, even paid for my cab home. feel all loved and blessed and fuzzy.

and their married life seems so nice. for those not from BA, daniel and mei ee just got married in december, after having dated at least 9 years. Maybe that's why they were so comfortable with each other, so in tune with the other person. My subconscious cynicism about married life just evaporated.

there are many mundane things that dont come to mind when we think about marriage. Like buying tissue paper, or detergent, or mango-scented soap, or yoko-yoko. but there you have it, it just has to be done.

posted by beckyboo @ 11:03 PM 0 comments

No Rain - Blind Melon

all i can say is that my life is pretty plain
i like watching the puddles gather rain
and all i can do is just pour some tea for two
and speak my point of view but its not sane
its not sane

i just want someone to say to me
i'll always be there when you wake
you know i'll like to keep my cheeks dry today
so stay with me and i'll have it made

and i dont understand why i sleep all day
and i start to complain when theres no rain
and all i can do is read a book to stay awake
and it rips my life away but its a great escape
escape
escape
escape

all i can say is that my life is pretty plain
you dont like my point of view
you think i'm insane
its not sane
its not sane

i just want someone to say to me
i'll always be there when you wake
you know i'll like to keep my cheeks dry today
so stay with me and i'll have it made

posted by beckyboo @ 11:37 PM 0 comments

like my poetry? as oblique and vague as it was, did you relate? i'd love some feedback. what did you understand it to mean? the exciting thing about being all vague is that ppl can interpret your work in a million different ways, making it a million times more interesting for you. and trust me, there is no right interpretation, although im sure there are a few wrong ones. (like: oh, this clearly means she wants to eat a termite mound with her toes)

anyway here's what i wrote for the yearbook (pg 112 for all you AJCians out there)

It's over. JC life is now only part of your memory. But what do you remember? Do you recall the times we spent together? Do you see regret? Do you see things you wish you had done, but never had to courage to do? Are you looking at yourself in this yearbook in your hands and laughing at how silly you used to be? I'll tell you what I see. I see you. I see the promises we made to each other. "Dont forget to invite me to your wedding!" "After the A levels okay?" I wonder about how many weddings we'll all attend. Now is the time we talked about, the fabled "after A levels". Will you still remember my name? Who can say? Only time will tell.

wait, there's more!
here's a haiku i wrote

Startled, the bell rings
Fleeting smile before you leave
May our paths cross soon

and here's the quote

"The golden moments in the stream of life rush past us and we see nothing but sand; the angels come to visit us, and we only know them when they are gone." George Elliot

i wrote in my typical honest, questioning, probing style with a good dollop of nostalgia. something everyone could relate to, something that engaged the reader instantly. good yearbook stuff, something you read that stirs up fondness, exactly what i intended. you like? i'd love to hear what others think of my work so do tell me.

i dont mean to diss them, but look at what the other classes wrote. half of it is gibberish, the other half is so trite and cliche. clearly written with only a few individuals in mind who could catch the nonsense.
"On a chair down the line/ One lazy afternoon so fine/ Rests a vibrating Fat Cat/ All outstretched and relaxed
High above stands an amazingly tall Cheez,/ wtih no little mouse to please,/ But accompanies Starhub man Lewis."
now what the heck did that mean. you'd think they strung up nonsense words to make things rhyme. and that last bit didnt even rhyme.

and listen to this, sounds so cliche.
"How time flies. It seemed like only yesterday/ when five and twenty people of/ vastly different personalities/ first embarked on a learning experience"

ok, like we havent heard that one before.
it reveals a lazy, uncreative mind that would rather used some worn out expression to say something than take time and really reflect on it. i HATE cliches. ok so i used one, but i had to... i was writing for some school thing. schools here dont tolerate creativity. (you wont believe the trouble i had just getting this version through the censors k)

and this one reads like a bad resume
"A mulitfacted and proactive group, our class has talents spanning the fields of art, dance, drama, and music. We are known for our modesty too!"

when they look back at their writing, whoever the authors may be, they are going to go, "i cant believe i actually wrote such crap." it's not going to mean anything!

i deplore the lack of intelligent thought in this here yearbook. so you may be some chao mugger. good for you. go on living in your 2 dimensional world where everything revolves around your grades. even if i tried to tell you what you were missing, you'd dismiss me cause you cant quantify it.

seriously, i blame the gov. doesnt everyone. but seriously, i do.

its a sad sad world we live in when ppl watch more tv than they read books. made even sadder by the fact that they consider Russell Lee a good writer. Even letters to the editor in Today... look like they've never reached the editor, or maybe the editor himself is a real bonehead. Such STUPID things being raised!!! infuriates me! This is why i like art students more than my own kind. prove me wrong science ppl, id love to meet someone i can conduct intelligent but non-farsical conversation with. In fact, im dying to meet you.

posted by beckyboo @ 1:03 AM 0 comments

parody

and all the people we pretend to be
one by one we pull them out of the air
desperately seeking to cover the fatal cut
can we exist if there is no comparison?
what am i unless i am not?
behind your confidence such fear
and it resonates, i'm amused
how long will you believe in your lies?
and what will you do once you stop?
suddenly its no longer funny
this grotesque parody of life

posted by beckyboo @ 12:49 AM 0 comments

Tony Parsons, Man and Boy, page 95

"Apart from the low wages, unsociable hours and lack of standard employee benefits such as medical insurance, probalbly the worst thing about being a waitress is that in the course of her work she has to deal with a lot of creeps.
Like a little apron and a notepad, creeps come with the job. Men who want to talk to her, men who ask her for her number, men who just refuse to leave her alone. Creeps, the lot of them.
Creeps from building sites, creeps from office blocks, creeps in business suits, creeps with their bum crack displayed above the back of their jeans, creeps of every kind - the ones who think they're funny, the onew who think they're God's gift, the ones who think that just because she brings them the soup of the day, they're in with a chance."

Encountered my first creep today. This weird looking bugger at table 9. Just the way he looked at me... leering... so gross. and when he asked me to clear the plates or something, he addressed me by "beautiful". seriously grossed out, felt partially violated. cant really explain how it felt, you wont know it until someone does that to you. but take my word for it that it is horrible. and then on the bus ride home, tony parsons assures me that its normal. if it were a good thing, id get a chance to use the word serendipidous.

Good thing im not that chio so things like this probably wont be happening too often. Cant imagine what it must be like for you mandy! Good thing for the guys too cos i will break their arms off if they tried anything funny. and throw chilli powder in their face. and break plates on their heads. and...

hmmm that didnt make me sound very feminine did it. was supposed to be more gentle this year. but hey, being a girl doesnt mean taking crap from creeps. and this girl aint taking no crap from no creep.

posted by beckyboo @ 11:17 PM 0 comments

hey mandy, just read your blog... and... no idea what you refering to! hey, its okay, i had good days on my own, no need for you to feel guilty at all k? =)

i know what you mean when you say its getting tedious. Im thinking of changing jobs soon too. keep you updated!

posted by beckyboo @ 12:13 AM 0 comments

went to cut my hair during my break yesterday.

student's cut at jean yip, wash cut and blow dry all for $10! i thought it was a great bargain... but i didnt like my hairdo... i told them to layer it, but somehow they managed to unlayer my hair instead. oh well. thats what you get for being cheap. it looked really bad, like Hanson: the early days. (remember them? the horror)

darren went with me, his was even cheaper at $4. but turned out pretty bad too. he went to "repair" his hair himself, so now he looks worse. inspired, i cut my own hair too when i got back from work, looks much better now, though i couldnt really do anything about the back. i know how they layer hair! hoho... if you trust me, the offers up, i'll cut your hair for you FOC!

got hair cut at united square, which happens to be where rachel works too! met her and talked to her for a while. that really made my day =) hope that we can meet up soon!

went kayaking with aezoh dan and sai today before work, which was why i was an hour late for work. at first it was drizzling, rather dismal, the whole thing almost got cancelled. but when we reached the jetty (really far away, i was so tired) the sun came out. it was nice, made the sea all glittery and sparkly. but as we kayaked back, it seemed as though we were kayaking back into the clouds, it just got darker n darker. alas, all that sunscreen applied in vain.

if only i didnt have work! then i'd have joined them at gelare, today being half price waffles day. damn. and i got scolded for being late, habitually late.

today i worked really hard. so many customers, so many orders. remarked to myself, hardest $5 i've ever come by. worked up a sweat from all that serving and such. and you'd think i have a slack job...

other than that, nothing much interesting happened lately.

posted by beckyboo @ 11:28 PM 0 comments

Perspective.

its shallow, it annoys me, but its reality, it just happens. people make snap judgements based on weak evidence like the A level results.

did well in the A's = smart, worthy of aunties cooing over you
did badly in the A's = stupid or lazy

i got AAAB, which is considered good, so all the aunties and uncles in church came over and congratulated me, cooing like pigeons. I guess they mean well, and i do appreciate their kind gestures. but i cant help but feel bad for those who didnt do well. i mean, regardless of the result im sure we all did our best, and thats reason enough for praise.

and suddenly my mom admits that i'm a good kid, this in the context of nagging darren to study harder of course. she said i did well, she was visibly pleased with my results. (i have not seen that look on her face in AGES, since the O's 2 years ago i reckon) i mean... i should be happy right, that finally im accepted. i sound ungrateful, but... shouldnt i be accepted regardless of how well i did? havent i been a good kid studying all this while, why is that only recognised if i produce the desired results? such a conditional world we live in. so much lip service being paid to the belief "as long as you tried your best..." in small print you see the clause "...and give us the good grades"

well anyway here are the details of my results

9079 Economics A
9233 Mathematics A
9258 Chemistry A
S paper ungraded
9284 Biology B
S paper ungraded

8005 General Paper A1
8201 Chinese B3

Thank you God for my results =) i didnt even dare ask you for 2 As. I remember being confident about my O's, i knew i had studied enough. But i was totally insecure about my A's, right until the night before results were released. But i managed to commit it to you, told you that i'd praise you no matter what the result and i really meant it. I gave up my plans, opened up my tightly clenched fist and lay my life at your feet. and in my opened palm, you placed these awesome results. I've been blessed beyond measure!

"Lord, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely i have a delightful inheritance."

Now i need to know where to go. Not really sure what course to do. my grades are good, to me, but not really scholarship material (esp with those ungradeds... eeps) so i dont know if im staying here or going to the US.

posted by beckyboo @ 11:53 PM 0 comments

Now this is what i call waitressing

today reminded me why i love being a waitress. Everyone who sat at table 1 today was friendly, talking to me, making jokes with me. there was this lady who gave me a cash tip even though she paid her bill by credit card! So nice! I enjoy providing good service, getting postive feedback in any form (a smile, a tip, conversation) is always gratifying.

Single Desperate and Ugly
today we had a buffet for 65 ppl, they took up the whole restaurant. after the place had filled up, willy tells me these people are there to be matchmade! it turned out to be a high tea event organised by some dating agency! hoho... needless to say, i had alot of fun watching the schmoozing. the little mind games they played. how most women ended up only hanging out with other women anyway. the different approaches each guy had. (this guy always struck while queing up for the buffet, this guy ate really fast and spent the rest of his time flitting from table to table with a glass in his hand), how they asked for numbers at the end of the event. i know its a mean stereotype, but they really did look S.D.U. if you know what i mean.

posted by beckyboo @ 11:40 PM 0 comments

chocolate bar wrapper reads:

front:
"Nestle double cream.
milk chocolate made with divine double cream balanced with fine cocoa beans because.... Chocolate Matters"

back:
"You deserve me.
No really, you do.
Devour my double cream,
savour my fine cocoa beans
from Ecuador, and remember....
Chocolate Matters."

*bursts out laughing*

posted by beckyboo @ 11:22 PM 0 comments

tommorrow i get my A level results, so i guess that warrants a post.

Today was supposed to be my fun and happy day to take my mind off the A's. Supposed to go kayaking and then over to mei yi's and then my classmates were supposed to come for a stay over. NONE of that materialised. i'd be lying if i said i wasnt disappointed.

got a call at 9am this morning, which woke me up. it was aezoh, said that serene was too tired to come with us, so was kayaking still on? not that i blame serene at all, guess it just happened. and just like that my morning of fun in the sun was cancelled. then i checked my phone, a message from aezoh telling me the same thing.... and... one from mei yi telling me that the evening's session was cancelled cos she was feeling dizzy. again not her fault at all. but not a nice way to wake up in the morning.

really felt like going back to sleep, mildly upset that things were falling apart. but i said to myself that i wasnt going to be miserable, convinced that i serve a infinetely good God. my plans may have been taken away from me, but maybe God had something even better planned for me. So rather than going back to bed, i dragged myself out and began to plan out the day's activities as i brushed my teeth.

i went to east coast anyway. Although i just told ben and aezoh last week that i wouldnt go all the way to east coast to run, that's just what i did. ok, so slow jog was more appropriate to describe my speed, but im proud that i got off my butt and dragged myself all the way there to do it! achievement sia... but i negated all that hard work by chowing down at macdonald's after that. what to do, they had the cheapest food. did a spot of bible reading there too, in all a nice peaceful morning spent with just me and my thoughts.

kinda sleepy when i got home (exercise has that effect on me, which would also explain why i've been having trouble getting to sleep recently =P) so fell into deep sleep the moment i hit the bed. and i mean hit the bed. the last thing i remembered was going down so hard that i bounced.

rudely awoken at like 2 something by my brother who rang home. i heard it but didnt really feel like leaving the soft embrace of my warm bed. it was raining man.... and i was all cosy. but then i realised "crap, that might be him stuck out in the rain and calling me to open the gate. he might get electrocuted!" (yesh, i think spastic thoughts) so i drag myself to the phone. and characteristically, it stops ringing once it gets within my field of vision. ALWAYS happens.

i bought a pair of slippers yesterday but they didnt have my size so i was supposed to go down to bugis today to pick them up. had planned it into the schedule, threw in a movie as well to give myself more purpose being at bugis. planned to go alone, since i've never done that before, and what better moment than now to sieze the opportunity. but on the bus ride home from east coast, i thought should be a more social creature so i messaged various people asking them to come with me. Long story, but basically they all turned me down or did not reply me except ben.

bugged darren to go with me, and being the easy-going feller that he is, i managed to do it. (or perhaps im very whiny) when we got there, bought 3 tickets for me darren and ben. but minutes later i call ben to check where he was, and he said he wasnt coming anymore!!! but again not his fault, cos he got lost or something and ended up in paya lebar.

that about did it for me, let the badness of the day take over me. felt so guilty that ben wasted $7.50. kept whining about it. but the movie was good! something's gotta give. should do a review, but some other day i guess. after the movie i was still feeling bad about ben, and whining to darren. then he told me, "but isnt it his fault? he stood you up." fwah, that boy makes alot of sense sometimes. began to feel less bad!

after the movie, i brought him to all my favourite haunts in bugis (except the toilet, will tell you how fabulous toilets are another day). went shopping with him, it was kinda fun. I think its nice to go out with family, you feel so comfortable, no need to be extra nice, no need to put up your defenses. and going out with my brother is even better cos we're into the same things, we speak at the same wavelength (which at this moment is Ali G style, its damn funny, you should see him go "wesside")

then we met up with daddy for dinner cos he works near bugis now. my idea; cos dinner with dad means its free. heh. He took us to the 24 hour steakhouse that we went to yesterday!!! yeah innit cool? 24 hours steak! it was a nice dinner, enjoyed it immensely. love my daddy.

then we hung around till mum came to fetch us at like 10 plus. went to coffeebean cos daddy wanted to surf there, he had a centrino laptop. this means, of course, that daddy's girl got a nice drink. heh.

then i thought about it, it's the first movie i've watched ALL YEAR! and the best dinner i've had all year too. so you see, God is GOOD!

guess mom had a bad day, cos she was being very grouchy about having to fetch us and then we not buying anything for her. she never asked what... and im no mind reader, how did i know what she wanted. and she asked me for her share of my pay and even drove me to the ATM to get it. when i reminded her that she was only getting $55 she accused me of siphoning it away. okay not in those words, but her tone was so scathing okay, i was hurt. I'm already giving you money, and i already explained why i only came to $55 in the end already (half of $360=$180, -$70 for renewal of passport= $110 divide between mom and dad=$55 each). then she claims i never told her and said better take it now before it becomes even less. that really hurt me. i wanted to give her the money with a joyful heart, knowing that i was doing a good thing, but the way she demands it of me... it was just so hurtful

but i bit my lip and took it. suppressed the bad feelings. good la, becoming more mature, didnt burst out in tears or anything. when we were really near home, the car stopped cos this guy was backing out and taking a really long time. dont know what came over me, but i just suddenly felt like walking home so i said in a cheerful voice "feel like walking home. see you." opened the car door and walked out. really seem to be acting on my impulses today.

nothing was mentioned of it when i strolled casually through the door. that's the way my family is, we dont talk abt anything. it wasnt an act of rebellion, really. i just felt like it, not out of spite or anything, and then just acted on it. no rebellious intent so my conscience is clear. but then i started thinking, what if it was percieved as a rebellious act, does it then matter whether i intended it or not? i dont know...

i could choose to focus on the bad things that happened today. but no. today was a good day given by a good God.

am i nervous about tmr? i havent even thought about it yet. I will be nervous at 2:30 though.

posted by beckyboo @ 11:47 PM 0 comments

hmmm havent been updating in a while no?

saturday: the relationship talk was pretty good! although i was kinda sleepy at first, the message was so gripping that instead of getting sleepier, i woke up. in case you were wondering about the subject matter, singlehood.

yep, im not gonna sit around twiddling my thumbs waiting for some guy to appear in my life. I'm gonna live. and live it to the max.

develop my character, build up all my friendships, improve myself, serve God. Live.
rather than sit around and mope, feel alone, muck around in self pity.

but when i got to sunday i was feeling all weird. could be due to the fact that i stayed up to prepare my sunday school lesson last minute. heh. once again, i find myself saying "curse my last minute nature"
was sleepy during worship, right after we learnt during leaders meeting about preparation, expectation and choice. felt like such a hypocrite. fell asleep during uncle jeffery goh's message. guilt. did not eat lunch with v cos i was feeling so weirded out. more guilt. did a sloppy job for sunday school. guilt.

feeling kinda sian and not wanting to go for the sunday school teacher's thing. thankfully, there wasnt a meeting in the end and i wound up talking to kel leon and wilfred, of all people! but it was a really interesting time, it was great getting to know wilfred better, he actually has a really great testimony to share with everyone, if only we'd take the time to talk to him.

after that i was in an appreciably more normal mood, just in time for work.

when i got home, talked to daniel and serene on icq. i love em so much, talking to them is always good.

supposed to go update my passport today but fell asleep. sigh. that is one major character flaw, if an unreasonable tendency to sleep can be called a character trait. what's that word...? narcolepsy!
nar·co·lep·sy ( P ) Pronunciation Key (närk-lps)
n. pl. nar·co·lep·sies
A disorder characterized by sudden and uncontrollable, though often brief, attacks of deep sleep, sometimes accompanied by paralysis and hallucinations.

busy week ahead!
tues: work
wed: work unless... RESULTS (arghargharghargharghargharghargh)
thur: kayak! hang out with serene. cooking dinner at mei yi's house!!!!
fri: RESULTS????

keeping us A level students in suspense over something as simple as the date of the release is not only evil, it's positively inconsiderate. i cant plan my timetable if they dont even indicate when they want me to face what i've not wanting to face! such rudeness! such treachery!

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